Little kids imitate what they see and hear

So my sister says something really startling to me. The funny thing is, I KNOW for a fact that she didn't make it up.

So my little sister is hopping around talkig crazy as usual. Then she says something out of the blue. "You're not a part of this family, you stay with those white people, they are your family." I thought WHAT THE FUCK!......Seriously though?? It was Thanksgiving night. I know for a fact that she heard somebody in my family say it. It was obviously said when I wasn't around.

I can definitely say for sure, that hurt me.

The crazy thing is, it's the truth. I was staying with a close family friend. EVERY time my mom felt the need to put me out for NO reason, I was there. I was a part of their family. So what?? How does anyone in my family have pride from that? I consider another persons family as my own.


That just shows that little kids know more than you think........................

First Born

Why does the first born child always have the most problems? Why is so much expected???

I'm the oldest and I had the most pressure put on me. Why?

My sisters have shit way too easy. For instance, my 16 yr old sister sits there and fail ALL of her classes and doesn't get in trouble. Shit, in high school, if I got below a C I got in trouble. She still gets to go to work and everything. Like WTF?? My ma says that's her life and if she wants to fuck it up then that's her. Who says shit like that?? Don't you want your child to succeed?? Apparently not. My sister thinks that it's ok for her to do bad, but whatever.

Also, she is more lenient towards them. I remember being restricted from EVERYTHING. She even made me lose friends. Now it's whatever.

My baby sister jumps around and messes eveything up. When I was her age, I heard stories of how I was punished for not even doing anything. I was a good child growing up and still had it the hardest.

Man, some of this shit is just ridiculous. I dislike being the first born child at times.

A word from a Bird

So this is just a word........from a bird........Basically something I heard.........



There was this child, who didn't get along with his parents. Nothing seemed to go right. They were constantly fighting.

One day, he screamed, "I'm going to kill myself!" ....He said there was no reason to live....

His parents hit him for no reason....He even tried to fight back. So after his staement.....A parent replied,"Go ahead and kill yourself, I'm not going to pay for your funeral, the state is."

WHOA!.......Comments please! How does that make YOU feel??? What are your thoughts on this???

It's my Life, Who are you to tell me

Why is there always somebody trying to tell another person about their life?

How could a person possibly say oh "You don't want to do shit with yourself."

In order to be successful you must fall down...Nobody ever has success after success. There is at least one time where that person didn't have a job or money. Perhaps they're just trying to figure out what was done to get to that bad point.

Sometimes people have to learn from their past mistakes to move on with their life, right? So why even bother that person? It's not your life, it's theirs.


I was watching something on tv and a person said that while going through your trials you might find happiness. Do you think that's true??

I mean, God won't put you through anything you can't handle right??? You might stumble a little bit, but in the end, there's always a rainbow at me the end.



So how about people just let others be. Let them go through whatever it may be and you just be there if needed. ...............Remember, it's MY life, who are YOU to tell ME???

Have you ever??

Have you ever felt like running away from all of your problems???


Have you ever just wanted to fly far away and never come back??


Have you ever just felt like there was nobody you can trust??


Have you ever wished you would've had a different life??


Have you ever wanted a different family???


Have you ever just wanted to cry out loud in front of a lot of people so they could try to feel your pain???


Have you ever wondered if you were going to live to see another day???


Have you ever wished for HAPPINESS but only got the opposite??


Have you ever cried so hard that your pillow was drenched???


Have you ever wished that certain a family member would be CLOSE to you??




These are my thoughts.............................Feel free to add more, BELOW

Negativity

So today I said that sometimes the most NEGATIVE people are closest to you....Friends and family. Don't you agree???


Some family members NEVER congratulate you on the good things you do. All you ever hear about is the bad things. Aren't they supposed to give you feedback on both? Why don't they? Don't they want you to be happy? I guess not. This world is ridiculous....people need help. What are you to do when all you hear about is the bad things? 


Friends also have gotten worse. They have become to be very jealous of the other person. What kind of friend is that?? Don't you want to see all of your friends do good in life? If so, then why be negative all the time?


That's just a little about how I was feeling for a short moment today........

When it rain, it pours

So as if my life wasn't complicated enough, I get a disturbing phone call. I'm not going to states what went on in this conversation, but I will give you my feelings on it.

Like my previous post called "Mother/Daughter Bond" stated, there's more to come!

A very close my friend of mine and I discussed the impoartance of being close with your mother a few weeks back. They had recently lost theirs and thought it was a good time me my mom and I to get closer.

Well, my question is. how are you supposed to do that when they push you away. There's no love around here. There a lot of bitterness going around.

What do you do when there's no one to call your MOM? I don't have a mother where I can run to when things go bad. Even when everything was going fine in my life I never heard the words "I'm proud of you." WTF?!

Why must I get looked down upon when things are good and bad?

Some say that GOD wouldn't put you through something if he didn't think you could handle it. Well I must say that I been through HELL and back a million times within the past 2 1/2 years. So is it true what they say?? Will I weather the storm this time? Who knows? I all know is that I feel like crying AGAIN and it seems to be very common with lately.

Things have gotten worse. Perhaps it really is starting to take a toll on my health. I feel sick to my stomach every other day.




That's just how I feel right now...SAD. Point blank.

Friends

It's always a good idea to have friends. So that's what I've been told. But recently I've found that it's best to do without MOST friends. Right??


It was said that friends are supposed to be there for you through ups and downs. I guess that was the case when our parents were growing up. These days, you do a LOT for these so-called friends and get nothing in return. Really?? Isn't it supposed to be eye for an eye and whatnot? People are so selfish these days.


I can name a least 5 people off hand, that I've loaned money to but never got it back. Or how about those that have called you when they needed a ride or something because their car was broken. 


When I needed some money the were the first to say they didn't have it. But I knew that was a lie because they PRACTICALLY lived in the clubs. When I needed a ride people wanted to complain. What kind of friendship is that? 


People are always around when you do good and have money. But, the moment things go bad, they are nowhere to be found. Funny huh? 


 Not all are real and are around for good reasons. I've learned that the hard way. But I am very happy to say that I no longer have them in my life.


Well, all I have to say is........... Choose your friends wisely.

What is LOVE?

A lot of people have the misconception of what LOVE really is.


Love isn't how many materialistic things a person can buy you. Why do people base love off of how much money and things people buy you. I mean that person can buy you the world and STILL beat you at the end of everyday. 


Love is, when you're out with that person, you give the your undivided attention. You love them as if there's nobody else in the world. It's showing that person off, like GOD made them just for you, right???


Love isn't treating a person bad and talking them down all the time. Love is showing you support, showing you care.


Those are a few thoughts of mine on love....


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Mother/Daughter Bond

So I've been told that there is no greater bond than a mother/daughter. I beg to differ. If that was so true, then how come so many don't get along with one another?? I can't remember the last time my mother and I hugged. Shoot, I can't remember the last time I heard "I love you." 


I sit back and think about my childhood. I remember getting my butt whooped for NOTHING more times than I remembered being hugged. What kind of bond is that? I wasn't a bad child. I never put my mom through hell. I didn't have kids. I never went to jail. I did good in school. Hell, I even had a job and paid for EVERYTHING I needed or wanted, especially when it was for school. I never heard "Good Job" or "I'm proud of you." Negativity was all I ever saw.


Some think that buying materialistic things shows how much you love a person. My opinion, BS! You don't have to buy things to show your love for me. A simple HUG is fine.


Also, why is it that I get blamed for being here, alive that is. A mother's responsibility is to give unconditional love. I wasn't asked to be on this earth. I definitely didn't ask for all those materialistic things either. So why complain?


Perhaps I should be happy? Ehh! Some mothers are on drugs. Some are dead. Some are CRAZY. Some don't take care of their children. At least I am taken care of......SOMETIMES. Even if she doesn't wasn't to, it's done because she "Feels she has to," not because of the fact that I'm the daughter or she loves me.


I know one thing, my sisters have things WAY easier than I did. I am looked at like I'm the stepchild. I feel as though I'm not a part of the family. Crazy huh?


Well.....all I can say to my friends is.....THINGS AREN'T ALWAYS THE WAY IT SEEMS...


There's a LOT more to this story...I just had to let some of it out.

Ugh!

So I hate when people tell you to "call" them or whatever and don't answer....WTF?!....This is the exact reason why I probably stopped speaking to you in the first place!...SMH!

Oh and why do"bigger" people seem to always have a comment on "smaller" people?? Yes I do eat! As a matter of fact, I eat A LOT! I'm alive aren't I??? Nobody goes around talking crazy about how fat the next person is, so why talk about small people??

Answer this bright question: WHY??.....Do ex "flings" always seem to come back or tend to be jealous??

SMH!....This FINGER is for YOU!

Quote of the Day

Good things come to those who wait...

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So I'm new to this....More coming soon....