So as if my life wasn't complicated enough, I get a disturbing phone call. I'm not going to states what went on in this conversation, but I will give you my feelings on it.
Like my previous post called "Mother/Daughter Bond" stated, there's more to come!
A very close my friend of mine and I discussed the impoartance of being close with your mother a few weeks back. They had recently lost theirs and thought it was a good time me my mom and I to get closer.
Well, my question is. how are you supposed to do that when they push you away. There's no love around here. There a lot of bitterness going around.
What do you do when there's no one to call your MOM? I don't have a mother where I can run to when things go bad. Even when everything was going fine in my life I never heard the words "I'm proud of you." WTF?!
Why must I get looked down upon when things are good and bad?
Some say that GOD wouldn't put you through something if he didn't think you could handle it. Well I must say that I been through HELL and back a million times within the past 2 1/2 years. So is it true what they say?? Will I weather the storm this time? Who knows? I all know is that I feel like crying AGAIN and it seems to be very common with lately.
Things have gotten worse. Perhaps it really is starting to take a toll on my health. I feel sick to my stomach every other day.
That's just how I feel right now...SAD. Point blank.
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I so wish I could say I understand. In a way I do because of the fact I have seen that behavior before from my aunt and her kids. Some Mother's are not met to be Mother's. They just don't have that Mother instinct. No fault of theirs I don't think, but it happens.
ReplyDeleteBabygirl that's u'r mom's issues NOT YOURS. U can't be held responsible for how she's reacting. If u trying to be a good daughter and she is shutting the door, that's b/c their is too much pain behind it. Pain that may have NOTHING to do with you. SHE has to recognize and process that b4 she can mother you. Maybe she is not ready. People do better when they know better.
ReplyDeleteMeanwhile, don't waste energy feeling sorry for yourself. Do what many others do and find Mother figures you can turn to and be grateful for them. Is it fair you have 2 do that. No. Is she wrong. YES. All day.
Now let it go. Stop holding your emotional growth hostage waiting 4 her to become something she can't be right now. Build good energy by being good to you mom anyway. "A gentel answer turns away wrath" Prov 15:1 Don't let her make YOU the issue. Otherwise she will stay focused on what's wrong w/you and never fix what's wrong w/her.
Best Wishes,
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